After years of a mediocre online presence I have grown sick of myself.  I don’t think it’s related to what I write, what I post, my political leanings or any of those common topics that make an online persona what it is.  I don’t think it’s my online persona per se.  I am just sick of myself, in all areas of my life, online and off.  So, with some hesitation I will be removing all of my various blogs over the next few days to weeks.  I may re-emerge in some manifestation but at this point I could not tell you what that manifestation will be.  I blame recent life events for this identity crisis, as I’ve labeled it.  I no longer really know who I am or who I want to or should be.  Some things will never change and that is my dedication as a father.  I will always love my children with all of my heart and will never cease to be everything that they deserve.  To be honest, my children are, what I consider to be, my one saving grace.  Loving them, and being loved by them, has made some pretty tough situations survivable.  However, every other aspect of who I am is fair game. It’s time to make a change, for better or worse. I don’t really know if anyone reads this blog anymore but if there are any passers by, farewell…  Thanks for stopping by.  Maybe our paths will cross elsewhere in the future.

K

at least that is what we are being lead to believe.

I am a very involved father. I love my two children more than life itself. From the moment they started school (e.g. daycare and now kindergarten for my oldest) they have been my morning commute mates. I consider my daughter to be my co-pilot because she is always watching what is going on and letting me know when a light red or green. Rather than go out frequently on the weekends I choose to stay home with my kids. I love being there with them and I love being there for them should they need me for some reason after they go to bed, even if it is just to tell me I’m handsome, then 5 minutes later to tell me she’s thirsty and 10 minutes later to ask me to cover her up. For me, there could be no better, and certainly no more important, way to spend an evening.

After all this time I thought the looks I’ve gotten were looks of pride, admiration and respect. I thought to myself “people are looking at me and seeing what a committed and loving father I am.” However in reality, after reading a recent article, I have come to the conclusion that everyone is placing bets on the size of my testicles. They don’t care that I would walk to the ends of the earth to be there for my children. They don’t care that every thought throughout the day is occupied in part by visions of my children. I would say that they don’t care that I would give my left testicle if it meant providing for my children but somehow I think they may care about that one as it may have the potential to upset their wagers.

Read the article here.

Dads, continue to be the great dads that you are. Now that we are easily identified as the Small-Testicled-breed of man good parenting is all we have left.

Seriously? One day into retirement and Barney Frank is throwing his hat back into the political arena. This is what is wrong with US politics today. Individuals like Mr. Frank think politics is a career, as opposed to public service. It’s time for some new insight with regards to the “fiscal cliff” and the state of the US economy. Putting Frank back in the game will just ensure that the same old, stale ideas are rehashed over and over again. It’s time to let some new minds “take the helm.”

Happy New Year

Posted: January 2, 2013 in Health and Fitness, Misc.

As always, a new year means setting new goals. I haven’t looked at this blog in almost 11 months. I log in today to write a nice, motivational post about getting my shit together in 2013 and what do I see? I see my nice, motivational post about getting my shit together in 2012. I guess nobody’s perfect but damn, I need some follow through.

I did meet some of my goals for 2012. We finished the basement of our house, although the floors need to be done again.
I took on the Insanity workout program and saw it through to the end. The problem was I didn’t have anything to fall back on once I finished it.
I did go to the beach once with my daughter over the summer however I was still in no shape to walk around shirtless, which I didn’t do.

This year I hope will be more of the same but with better, longer lasting results. I’d like to lose a lot of weight (around 100 lbs). That is the priority goal for 2013.

Hopefully I’ll check back in before 2014 but one just never knows.

That’s right, we are already at February 24th, 2012. Where has the time gone. Before we realize it summer will be upon us. In truth, the last 3-4 years have really flown by. So many changes, so many life experiences. Over the past 4 years, I have welcomed 2 children into the world, I have earned 2 degrees and switched jobs. My mother was diagnosed with, and subsequently cured of, cancer. I’ve lost weight, gained weight, taken up running and quit running due to an ankle injury. We welcomed in a new president in 2008, and here we are once again, actively engaged in presidential politics, to determine who will lead the united States for the next 4 years, beginning in 2013. I guess the point I’m trying to make is that time is flying and if we don’t make a concerted effort to stop and appreciate the world around us, it’s going to pass us by.

For me, 2012 is going to be a game changer. I will lose that extra weight and I will go to the beach with my daughter. I will take on a more active lifestyle. I will save more money, I will fix up my house with the hope of selling it in the near future. I will seriously consider going back to school 1 more time to add an advanced certificate to my degree. It’s time to make the most of the time we have. No more excuses. No more “putting things off.” There are things I want and things I want to achieve and I am not going to rest until my goals have been realised. Today is a new beginning.

There have been many posts on Reddit today disputing the validity and veracity of Lucidending’s post. Some facts in his posts have lead some to think his post is nothing but a ruse. However, the true situation can not currently, and may never, be verified. Based on this information where do we go? What do we do? What should we think of Lucidending? Is the story really less impressive if Lucidending turns out to be a fake? Here’s the deal. Real or fake, Lucidending made some deeply moving, motivational and inspirational statements. He made thousands of readers look at life in a different perspective. He was the reason for an enormous outporing of emotion and love from complete strangers. So I guess….in answer to my original question, we may never know if he is the Reddit Hero we all made him out to be and likewise, we may never know if he is the master of all trolls as some others purport but I submit to you that one does not necessarily exclude the other. Maybe this was all a ruse but so many of us were changed by his story and the various stories shared by so many. Maybe he is the master of all trolls but even if he is, he still just may be a hero as well.

Nothing we have is worth hurting anyone else for. It’s all fleeting people. Stop seeing race, color, sex, religion, etc…. Theyre all just people, and if you try to love them you won’t lose anything.